balance... or not

I'm going to be super honest... right now, the paper consumes my life.... like this paper is eating my soul. It is so hard to maintain a good balance between school and school and keeping myself... well alive. Being a hard worker, I try to give my own work as much of my time as I can, however that isn't exactly easy considering that I also have to spend time at school and for example tomorrow we have conferences so I'll be at work for 12 hours... not exactly ideal for having a paper due on thursday. I suppose I had gotten too used to my comfortable library habits at sewanee to realize how hard it would be to try to work in new study habits while also worrying about food and sleep and laundry and bills. I'm not drowning per se but rather adjusting to new patterns. I'm already tired from working with the kids but knowing I have to go home and up my productive level, is difficult. On top of that I somehow have to find a way to feed myself... which lately has been microwavable meals since they don't take long and are a perfect portion size. I know that I can't pull an all nighter like I used to mainly because I have to be on with the kids and it wouldn't be fair to them for me to come to school not having slept..... hmmmmmmmm decisions decisions....