Adulthood

Here is when I get really honest with you. Today I'm not really going to talk about the kids but more about where I am right now.... I'm tired, like just sleepy slash I totally get why my dad goes to bed at 9:30... I'm spending all day actually working and it's hard. Much harder than I expected... I honestly can't even imagine doing this with more than just me to feed... The idea of even getting a dog right seems like too much.... maybe even a fish. That seems like a commitment. I'm finally understanding what it means to be an adult and be on my feet all day and be giving so much of myself. I care so much about these kids and I'm understanding how we, as teachers, can get caught up in their lives. I want so much for them and want so much for them to succeed in life. But, the reality of our world and our time period is that not everyone will succeed. I hate that. I can see the amazing things my kids will do and I just want those things to happen. I'm just trying to navigate through all of these crazy changes I'm experiencing that apparently make up adulthood. Living on my own, managing my own life, trying to keep myself floating, studying for my masters and working with kids... It's a big step... Well a lot of them. And I guess I'm just trying to navigate through all of them. It's not easy, and I'm learning.... Any advice I'd totally appreciate!